8tracks is one of my favorite things because no matter how long it’s been I can go back and listen to the playlists I made and instantly be reminded of a certain time in my life or a feeling I felt then. I just noticed that my bio on 8tracks simply says, “This is more for me than for you.” I think that sums it up pretty perfectly.
Earlier I was talking to my friend Isabel on facebook chat and I told her a few things that are going on in my life and she said, “THAT’S SO EXCITING! Everything is falling into place!” And it wasn’t until that moment that I figured out what it is that I’ve been feeling over the past few days. Simply put it is contentedness, but at times it feels like a overwhelming excitement. It truly does feel like things are falling into place.
It reminds me of a quote from a Shins song: “Nothing holds a roman candle to the solemn warmth you feel inside of you. There’s no measuring of it, as nothing else is love.” I love Alex. I love my majors. I love my teachers. I love the people in my life. I love the place I live. I love who I’m becoming. I love that I’m strong, compassionate and talented. I love that I’m more at peace with my past every day. I love shattering every boundary I’ve placed in my own way.
It’s impossible to know whether or not things will stay the same, but no matter what, it’ll be alright. I’ve chosen to be close to the right people. I’ve chosen life goals that make happy. I’ve chosen to be surrounded by respect and encouragement. Whatever happens within those constructions is going to be okay with me.
I remember being 15 and listening to this in my dad’s garage and having so many feelings I didn’t know what to do with them all except write on my xanga and listen to this album and probably complain to Staci until her brain hurt
Yesterday was one of those days that was just amazing from start to finish.
-I got plenty of sleep and woke up feeling rested
-During my final sight singing class Jelena told me she thought I had a gift and she thinks I should branch out into other areas of music. She tells me this after every test but it’s still nice to hear
-Joel was super nice to me during my lesson as per usual and I really felt like I was improving and applying his comments effectively
-I listened to Everclear all day and it’s the first time in a while that I’ve enjoyed listening to music for longer than ten minutes. Maybe I just need to get back to my roots
-I called our new landlord and set a date to move into our new apartment a week from Sunday! :):):)
-I had time in between my lesson and my concert to eat some lunch, watch Scrubs, play my scales a few times and get ready without having to rush, but not so much time that I felt like I was sitting around doing nothing
-The aforementioned concert was probably the best one I’ve had. Ever. I felt like I was truly performing instead of just going through the motions. I’m finally starting to feel like I’m really part of the group
-Alex and I went to McMenamin’s after and I got a beer I really liked (Hammerhead IPA, for my own future reference) and a mushroom swiss burger. Anyone who knows anything about me should know I love me some mushroom swiss.
-We went back home and watched Parks and Rec like usual and fell asleep happy people
Good day. Hopefully it’s foreshadowing for an awesome winter break!
Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, and I really wish somebody had told this to me.
All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But it’s like there is this gap. For the first couple years that you’re making stuff, what you’re making isn’t so good. It’s not that great. It’s trying to be good, it has ambition to be good, but it’s not that good.
But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is good enough that you can tell that what you’re making is kind of a disappointment to you. A lot of people never get past that phase. They quit.
Everybody I know who does interesting, creative work they went through years where they had really good taste and they could tell that what they were making wasn’t as good as they wanted it to be. They knew it fell short. Everybody goes through that.
And if you are just starting out or if you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Do a huge volume of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week or every month you know you’re going to finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you’re going to catch up and close that gap. And the work you’re making will be as good as your ambitions.
I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It takes awhile. It’s gonna take you a while. It’s normal to take a while. You just have to fight your way through that.
“In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer. And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger — something better, pushing right back.”—Albert Camus
“Bottom line, it’s the couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship, every time, if it’s right and they’re real lucky. One of them will say something.”—